LJ

It's official. I'm tired of the spam comments, I'm going back to LJ where there's no spam! http://www.livejournal.com/users/faeriequeene05/ is where to find me.

job woes

I hate my job. Have I said that before? Well, I do. Some people there are nice, some aren't. I'm tired and I'm tired of being tired. Something better change soon because I have a feeling that part of the reason I don't feel good is because I know I'm not where I'm supposed to be. I'm tired of waiting!!!!!

uncaring

Someone said to me today that the reason I don't have a boyfriend is because I'm shy and I give off the impression that I don't care about anything. I wasn't sure how to take that. This person that said this to me isn't always nice, and she's over opinionated, but I began to wonder if she has a little point there. I am shy in new situations (she only knows me at work) and perhaps I am hard to get to know, but is that the reason I don't have a boyfriend? Or is it because I'm too picky? Is it because the right guy hasn't come along yet? With my history with guys (snotface and the like) I haven't been shy in the least, in fact, a little shyness would have come in handy just about then. So, in writing this, I've come to the conclusion that this girl was trying to bait me and trying to make me feel like I had done something wrong. She cheated me out of some tip money today, but not enough to make a fuss over.... I'm tired and I'm tired of being tired! Tomorrow, I start looking at "moving on" options. I'm trying to wait to see if I got into grad school or not but I'm getting impatient! I know I only took the GRE two days ago and Radford probably doesn't even have my scores yet, but I'm so restless and wondering... when's it all going to start? In college, I thought it would start when I graduated, now that I have, nothing's started? I think I have to go out and start something myself and stop waiting for it to fall in my lap. I wish I had someone to start something with (metaphore implied).

RIP Gladys

Well, Ladies and Gents, she died on Wednesday morning at 5am. Bless her heart, she held on to see her granddaughter and speak to her son in Florida, then her body caughtup with her mind and she was gone. The mad dash to get everything done began at 5:15am that morning. Trips to the home, to the funeral home, to the cemetary all had to be done that day. Phone calls out the wazoo had to be made and now, two days later, it's still not all done.

What I've learned from this experience: I'm going to have Mom knocked off by some guy named Bobby and leave it at that!!!

Mrs Smith

I'm going to Baltimore for a few days with Mom to say goodbye to my great grandmother (mom's grandmother) who is currently dying. Bless the Old Girl's heart, shes 97 years old and it's time for her to go, but that doesn't make it much easier for those of us left. I'm going to say goodbye, but mostly, I'm going for Mom. She needs to go and will regret if she doesn't and she needs someone there with her. At first, last night, I couldn't sleep with the thoughts of going. I was worried about work and about what people would think about me for leaving on such short notice and such, but now, after I've had a few hours sleep (emphasis on few) all I'm worried about is Mom, my grandmother, and how things are going to turn out while we're there....

by the way, I'm worried about my GRE next wednesday too!! AHHHH!!!!

Stupid man!

Ok, I met this guy online, let's call him Jon. Jon treats me like I'm two years old and he talks about my father like he's an aging and decrepid old man! Two thumbs WAY down Jon! You are losing any ground you ever gained with that theater and candle lit dinner comment. All in all, YOU LOSE!!!!!


Was that too mean?

GRE

I have just made my appointment to take the GRE on October 19! Oh geez. I need at least 1000 to get into Radford and this is my only chance to get in for the spring! No preasure!

(1000 out from two test with scores ranging from 200-800 in increments of 10 and an analytical writing score ranging from 0-6)... yeah, I don't really get it either, but if it gets me into Radford who really cares?!?

decisions

I made three decisions today:

1. I'm going to make an appointment to take my GRE in October.

2. I'm going to mail my application to Radford today or tomorrow.

3. I'm going to look for a new job.

There are many reasons why I've made these decisions today instead of any other day, but I guess the main one is that I'm tired. I'm tired of getting up at 4am, I'm tired of dealing with crap at work (for which they don't pay me enough) and I'm tired of working with people who don't like me and treat me like I'm an idiot. I'm tired of it and I don't have to stay there if I can get a new job (or win the lottery- but I think a new job is more likely to happen). So, there it is. That's the plan. And let no man put it assunder. Or something like that.