uncaring

Someone said to me today that the reason I don't have a boyfriend is because I'm shy and I give off the impression that I don't care about anything. I wasn't sure how to take that. This person that said this to me isn't always nice, and she's over opinionated, but I began to wonder if she has a little point there. I am shy in new situations (she only knows me at work) and perhaps I am hard to get to know, but is that the reason I don't have a boyfriend? Or is it because I'm too picky? Is it because the right guy hasn't come along yet? With my history with guys (snotface and the like) I haven't been shy in the least, in fact, a little shyness would have come in handy just about then. So, in writing this, I've come to the conclusion that this girl was trying to bait me and trying to make me feel like I had done something wrong. She cheated me out of some tip money today, but not enough to make a fuss over.... I'm tired and I'm tired of being tired! Tomorrow, I start looking at "moving on" options. I'm trying to wait to see if I got into grad school or not but I'm getting impatient! I know I only took the GRE two days ago and Radford probably doesn't even have my scores yet, but I'm so restless and wondering... when's it all going to start? In college, I thought it would start when I graduated, now that I have, nothing's started? I think I have to go out and start something myself and stop waiting for it to fall in my lap. I wish I had someone to start something with (metaphore implied).